When we are ready to clear old wounds, something will unfold that triggers them and brings them to the surface. It is there, in the light of consciousness, that we can turn and face the shadows When you notice strong emotion or reactivity, a breakthrough is in process.
Everyone plays the roles we need them to play. A cast of characters sets the stage for the next phase of growth. After 40 years of working with my strongest wound, I considered it healed. It had become the foundation of my backstory and has briefly been shared in interviews as well as my first book.
With the death of my father some years ago, I felt divine peace and neutrality (indicators of balanced karma); however, unbeknownst to me, a subtle piece still remained that needed to play out with my mother. Over the last few years, our relationship has bloomed as we got to know one another one-on-one.
Recent current events have triggered the old pain – hypocrisy versus authenticity (centered around a Presbyterian Christian upbringing combined with the Heritage Foundation, which formed when I was five). It’s been interesting to demonstrate authenticity while being supportive of someone who views my work through the filter of fear.
The old stories attempted a return; however, I was able to watch the mechanisms of the ego and choose non-reactivity while in her presence. At home, with the support of my sweetie, I allowed the emotions to come and purposely faced the shadow. While not completely eradicated as of this writing, I can see the purpose of this struggle… how it set the stage for the love and healing work to come. Acceptance and kindness became my way of walking in the world and, knowing this, I honor the perfection of my life’s journey.